Growing?Changing? Remember who you are.

Like I have stated before, this can be a very confusing journey (well at least for me). I have Learned alot since I first joined this community, but learning and doing are two very different things. Through out my learning experience I think I might have changed in a way that I did not expect to.

I didn't get into the Game to become some one else, I came into this wanting to improve myself. I had a "self Improvement" goal. I approached this from a inner game frame, and I think somewhere I might have forgot that. After so much practicing and learning I think that I had forgotten why I was here in the first place.

After practicing all the routines and doing all the exercises , I thought that I was improving, but I was Wrong. Although I have come a Long way and have gotten a lot better I forgot the real reason why I was here!

All I wanted to do was to improve myself, so I can be a better person. I Still wanted to be who I was, I just wanted to be the BEST me possible. I wanted to fix the lil things(a lot of Lil things)
that I was doing wrong,thus improving myself.

Somewhere in between all the routines,lines,reading, I got lost. Although I was able to run a Certain method and had no problems adapting, some how I began to become "robotic".

When I went out I found myself becoming That Method.... I had forgotten all about my good qualities and myself. Instead of being myself and incorporating all these wonderful things that I had Learned I just wasn't myself anymore.

I understand that we all change as we grow, but I felt that I wasn't growing just changing. I felt Like I was becoming someone else.

Hopefully with this knowledge I can start to learn more about myself and what I still need to work on. Every method is great but ultimately in the end its you that gets the Girl.